Terrible Times

What a terrible time I have been going through.
At the end of November I moved up to Pretoria, South Africa, literally leaving everything behind, including the city that I love most.  Its now May and I really hate it here.  I would do anything to just go back in time and alter my decision.  It's been a huge adjustment and I just can't seem to get use to the people and the place.  Its sooo different than the Capetonians... (I wanna go home :o(((((((( )
On the 20th of April I lost my dear brother very suddenly and this changed my whole life.  The last man in our lives are now gone and we are just a bunch of women left in our family.  Why did he have to leave us so soon???  He was an absolutely AMAZING man and I miss him so much.  There was nothing on earth he would not do for me or my three beautiful kids.  He was their brother/father/grandfather... all in one.  He had a special touch with children and they all seemed to adore him.  After his death, the little boy a few houses away, would come looking for him.... walking through my mom's whole house.. calling "Boeta" (his nickname)  Its so sad to think that even a 1 year old, could miss someone, who was special to him.
We will still miss him for many many years to come.  Nothing and no-one will ever be able to fill that space.  He was a One of a Kind......